i couldn't help it. i shed silent tears as we drove home. i ran to my room and i sobbed. i never meant to be this way. i never meant for you to be ashamed of me. i only meant to harm myself.

you told me what i've known my entire life...i am unacceptable. i am fat. i am useless. i have no worth because i take up far too much space.

and all i can say is that i am so sorry for letting you down. for letting myself down. for not being what i was supposed to be. i'm so sorry.

jack johnson: flake
feeling worthless