i thought i could handle being home for a month. but i just can't. this place is nothing but horrible memories. it's a job that i hate. people that i don't want to see, but feel obligated to hang out with. and a family that makes me feel sad to be alive.

i haven't felt this unhappy in a long time. i never thought that coming home would be this hard. i just expected to still be able to deal. but i was on the phone with him tonight, and i started crying. and i couldn't stop. and i couldn't explain. all i could say was that everything here is wrong and i want to go back to school. and really, that is all i want.

i told myself that i'd come back to maryland after i graduated from wvu. but i know now that that won't ever happen. this place won't ever be my home again. and that's just fine.

evanesence - my immortal
feeling out of place