i talked to my brother yesterday. he just got back from seeing our dad.

he says i should call dad soon. he's gotten really weak. and he never really gets out of his chair...i should call him soon. why? so i can say sorry you're dying? i'm sorry you were never part of my life? it came down to this. and i kind of always knew it would.

i'm supposed to reach out & automatically forgive a father who is really just a dying stranger. am i obligated to do this? is this what everyone expects from me? and if i don't...

will i regret it for the rest of my life?