mmm...valium and marijuana and cocaine. if only it could wash everything away. it won't. but for now, it's my answer to inevitable change.

am i stupid for getting fucked up all the time? it makes me feel pathetic. but i can't stop. this is what i live for. it's why i bother to get out of bed every day. is that wrong...

at least it's something to live for. because man, i'm running out of reasons. i need this.