i imagine you feel more alone now than you ever have before. more alone than when your father died. more alone than when dad left. both of your babies are gone, and you don't know what to do.

and it was depressing to be home. the frig was empty. you say there's no reason, there's no one to feed. my bedroom is bare, lifeless. my brother's room is completely empty. your reasons to live have moved on.

in one month, both of your children have told you that they're happier than they've ever been. and it's without you. i know that hurts. i know how hard you tried. but you know that it was just never enough. you could never provide us with what we needed.

i do love you. and i wish you weren't so alone. you don't deserve to be alone. i'm sorry.

sister hazel: your mistake
feeling bored