i'm fucking everything up.

i smoke too much weed. i don't go to enough classes. i don't write papers on time. i fail tests. i go out during the week when i know i shouldn't.

tonight i went to a bar with friends. laura gave me ecstasy. i'm so messed up. it's so wrong. my stomach is empty and my head is...i don't even know. clouded. it hurts. i'm so hot.

oh god, i'm fucking everything up.