there is a certain sense of calm that i have been seeking for what seems like forever. and you know what you are to me? you're chaos. you're the opposite of what i want to be. what i want my life to be like.

my life will never be what i want it to be as long as you are still a part of it. i wish you saw that. i wish you would just make the break. because i'm too weak to do it myself. i still tell myself i need you. and it just makes giving you up a million times harder.

just make this stop. do something so horrible that it would make me stop loving you. you've got less than a month to make it happen. please try hard.

fairweather: south street, 1 am
feeling stoned