and when he told me, all i was thinking was that it could have been me. maybe it even should have been me. but i'm glad it wasn't. i've built a life for myself. a real fucking life. but still...it's almost like a slap in the face.

and i've changed my mind. maybe you were right all along. i think you're exactly what i need. i've spent so much time denying what i feel. but now...i'm ready to breathe again. and all i want to breathe is you.

ps; happy 19th birthday tiffany

joni mitchell: california
feeling caffeinated