so what do i do now? i was accepted into the university of maryland at college park. a school that is impossible to get into unless you're brilliant. and brilliant i am not.

my head is spinning. everything is happening all at once. my life is being decided. the past year and half has been such a struggle. but now all of the sudden everything is working out for me. i never thought this would happen. i never thought i'd amount to anything.

now i have decisions to make. and i don't know what to do. west virginia or maryland. maryland is a great school, people would kill to go there. but...it's so close to home. so close to this place i'm trying to leave behind. i'm just so afraid that my chance to start over will be taken away.

i just know i'll make the wrong decision. i always do.

nirvana: the man who sold the world
feeling overwhelmed