it's hard to forget the good things. he told me that i was beautiful. that he was in love with me. he said to me all the things i so desperately needed to hear.

but it's even harder to forget the bad things. how he's devastated me time and time again. said things about me that weren't true. allued to the fact that he was using me.

what's my decision. am i over it. could i do this again. my heart is telling me so many things. i'm so conflicted. i don't know what i want. i don't know if i want him anymore.