everyone tells me, all my friends tell me, 'it's lessons learned manda. you learned a lesson from all of this.' FUCK THAT!

i didn't want to learn a fucking lesson. i didn't go into this saying oh hey, i hope i learn a valuable life lesson from this. no. that's just what everyone says in the aftermath. to make you feel better.

i didn't want to learn a lesson. i wanted to be in love for the rest of my life. i wanted this to end some other way...