this frustration is growing, and i don't know how to deal with it. this always ends in disaster. i need someone to vent to. but no one is home. mom is in germany. katy is in flordia. brianne is still in california. i need them all home so i won't self-destruct...do things i'll regret.

it's this being blamed for everything. being watched over when i'm really just so independent. being treated like a child. being badgered at work to cover more shifts. how many times can i say no before they understand? (turns out it was four) it's having to deal with the fact that i am considered a bad influence. a bad person. when it's all so untrue.

it's everything. i'm so stressed. i just need someone i can talk to.

ben folds: still fighting it
feeling overwhelmed