eleven days. braden will be one year old. but it doesn't matter. my family can't see him. and chip will go to jail for longer this time.

i try not to think about it. i got out before the downward spiral absorbed me. and i thank God for that everyday. but i wish i could save my mom. and sometimes i even feel a little bit sorry for my brother.

fleeting thoughts. i won't get involved. it shouldn't concern me. i've lost any sense of family that i ever had. and it's left me emotionless and apathetic.

things could have been different for us.

(10 days till sharon comes to see me!!!)