and then everything falls apart.

i want to cry for you. because you've ruined everything. all your bad decisions...catching up with you. but i can't. i don't want to feel any sympathy for you. i don't.

the truth is that i want to run away from here and never look back. because when i look back...all i see is you. and your fucking mistakes. and i see our dying family. and my friends who never will understand...

leaving home was the best decision i ever made. i remember why now. this is a miserable place filled with horrible people. i don't know that i can ever come home again.

please don't hate me for this. i love you. i love my family. but i'm miserable here. and i don't know how to deal with it anymore.

i'm sorry.

these wounds won't seem to heal. this pain is just too real. there's just too much that time cannot erase. --evanesence