i haven't gotten high in a week. the longest i've gone in what seems like forever. and suddenly i'm so depressed. i've been crying for the past two days for no fucking reason. everyone keeps asking me what's wrong. and i just don't know what to tell them.

and yesterday i made a list of goals for myself. cut down on smoking. go to all classes. go to the rec center every day. stop spending money. eat better. do homework ahead of time.

and god, it just made me sad. i'm so pathetic. those things shouldn't have to be goals. i should already be at the point where all of those things are accomplished.

but i'm not. i'm just not.

aimee mann - driving sideways
feeling low